One hundred percent honesty? I think she's attractive but it was different. It's the same girl who threw coffee in my face that one time? Which was oddly appealing and if Odin's right, I'm kinda into - anyway. It was different.
Like with Jean and it's not like, some hot chase, it's - someone I'd trust with my life. I don't even know Halloween girl's last name. And I was cool being kinda used for free drinks for a fun time and I didn't really have long term expectations outside of whatever happened that night, but like...
[A pause; he just unmasked Barney and has to reflect on that.]
I also wasn't expecting to make out with a close friend either.
[the revelation isn't fussed over; Chases are smart]
I sort of had a hunch that was Barney.
She seems sweet. Not sadist-coffee-face girl, Jean. As long as you don't make a habit of kissing girls you don't actually have feelings for, I don't see why it'd be a problem?
What should we talk about? Like, I might've - I tried? I don't know. [He sighs; another Peter stroke nbd.] I might've blurted out that she was beautiful and she told me not to say that so I don't know how to navigate this world of emotions but I do know that I'm all... weird right now. Not a bad weird. A kinda dazed, nothing can bother me kinda weird.
Uh, yeah you should talk about it? It'll make navigating this "world of emotions" a lot easier if you guys know what each one of you want.
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I mean. I'm not a dating expert, but it made it a whole lot less stressful that Alex and I agreed to date like, five seconds after he kissed me. Well, he said "I licked it, so now it's mine," or something weird, but that's what he meant. Nobody, aka me, since I'd be dumbass, had to force the "what aaare we?" conversation, which I've heard is a hard pass.
Did... Did [Peter's a fast thinker, picking up on it quickly in this context:] he really say that? Like that is really weird but somehow it does sound like something that would successfully seduce you.
[...] I'll try and breach the subject with her. Is it - actually, why am I asking you this. We had this conversation before, about you guys keeping it close to your chest. I just - don't really wanna have this convo with my dad about how I made out with my pseudo-adopted sister.
But I told Odin so the whole world might know already.
I wasn't seduced, I was -- I mean, like, am, totally in love with him. Sort of since we first properly met in Valhalla. Um, that's also how he started the conversation, for the record. [Magnus smiles, and he remembers this bit word for word;] "I think I love you?" Which I still managed to misinterpret, but Barney sounds smarter than me, so. That might be more direct.
[a considering hum]
What's the question? Because the close-to-our-chest thing didn't actually pan out.
Yeah, it was just about how that went... Or didn't go. It's not that I want to keep it quiet or anything but at the same time, like - no need to tell everyone, right? At least not 'til it's sorted out?
[Another hands in face moment.] I sound like you. The tables have turned.
Who am I gonna tell? Some tree stumps? A nosy woodpecker? Don't worry about it, dude. But also, um, don't let not telling people be an excuse to not figure stuff out, because then you don't have to explain it.
[a pause, because it seems like Peter sort of -- didn't? respond to an implied question]
I don't mean you - I know you wouldn't, it's just... I haven't even talked to my sister, or my dad and in the latter case I don't even feel like it's something to mention to him. Is that weird? It's not like it's a secret but what am I gonna do, be like - so dad, what's up? I made out with Jean!
[Groan.] Do I have to? Tell her? Can't that just - isn't that a lot? Isn't that big? It seems like a big step. Don't think we're there.
Why would you tell your dad? [literally who needs dads?] You could talk to your sister, but no offense, she seems like sort of a mess too.
[as for the second question]
...Do what you think is best, I guess. You know better how you guys feel. [...] But, I guess I'm confused, since you already love her? Like a family, which is like, a big deal. Isn't this just adding something more to an existing, thing? Like another scoop on an ice cream cone you were literally already eating.
Yeah, all things considered - family doesn't need to know shit right now. [Little does he know that while he gossips to his friends, Jean's chatting with Wanda all the same.]
I - Ah. [Why is he always hearing from other people explanations about how he feels that make sense? Why is it through Odin's stupid 20 questions and Magnus's logic that Peter's only beginning to realize these things? I guess I'm confused, since you already love her? Shit. It's not wrong but like...]
I don't want to freak her out. Complimenting her didn't exactly go great and, ah. I don't know. I don't know? I figure she already knows how I felt about her before. Is it super important to bring it up again? [Too many scoops of icecream and that shit is gonna fall sideways, fast.]
You don't need to answer it since you only just found out who Barnes is by me blurting it out - thanks for not pointing that out by the way - but it's just kinda like. In retrospect, I'm wondering how stupid I've acted around her in an obvious but not self-aware how obvious it was kinda way.
Or if like, now, I'll just look like a dumb puppy or something. Call me out on it if I do.
I think it's dumb to be too cool for feelings. I think it's nice, when you can tell someone likes you. If it's as friends or family or something romantic.
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Do you or Halloween Chick have feelings for eachother?
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Like with Jean and it's not like, some hot chase, it's - someone I'd trust with my life. I don't even know Halloween girl's last name. And I was cool being kinda used for free drinks for a fun time and I didn't really have long term expectations outside of whatever happened that night, but like...
[A pause; he just unmasked Barney and has to reflect on that.]
I also wasn't expecting to make out with a close friend either.
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I sort of had a hunch that was Barney.
She seems sweet. Not sadist-coffee-face girl, Jean. As long as you don't make a habit of kissing girls you don't actually have feelings for, I don't see why it'd be a problem?
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Right. Man, I don't even know what to do next. Sorta just floating through life right now.
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Did you guys talk about it?
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What should we talk about? Like, I might've - I tried? I don't know. [He sighs; another Peter stroke nbd.] I might've blurted out that she was beautiful and she told me not to say that so I don't know how to navigate this world of emotions but I do know that I'm all... weird right now. Not a bad weird. A kinda dazed, nothing can bother me kinda weird.
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[...]
I mean. I'm not a dating expert, but it made it a whole lot less stressful that Alex and I agreed to date like, five seconds after he kissed me. Well, he said "I licked it, so now it's mine," or something weird, but that's what he meant. Nobody, aka me, since I'd be dumbass, had to force the "what aaare we?" conversation, which I've heard is a hard pass.
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[...] I'll try and breach the subject with her. Is it - actually, why am I asking you this. We had this conversation before, about you guys keeping it close to your chest. I just - don't really wanna have this convo with my dad about how I made out with my pseudo-adopted sister.
But I told Odin so the whole world might know already.
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I wasn't seduced, I was -- I mean, like, am, totally in love with him. Sort of since we first properly met in Valhalla. Um, that's also how he started the conversation, for the record. [Magnus smiles, and he remembers this bit word for word;] "I think I love you?" Which I still managed to misinterpret, but Barney sounds smarter than me, so. That might be more direct.
[a considering hum]
What's the question? Because the close-to-our-chest thing didn't actually pan out.
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[Another hands in face moment.] I sound like you. The tables have turned.
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Who am I gonna tell? Some tree stumps? A nosy woodpecker? Don't worry about it, dude. But also, um, don't let not telling people be an excuse to not figure stuff out, because then you don't have to explain it.
[a pause, because it seems like Peter sort of -- didn't? respond to an implied question]
-- Are you gonna tell her you love her?
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[Groan.] Do I have to? Tell her? Can't that just - isn't that a lot? Isn't that big? It seems like a big step. Don't think we're there.
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[as for the second question]
...Do what you think is best, I guess. You know better how you guys feel. [...] But, I guess I'm confused, since you already love her? Like a family, which is like, a big deal. Isn't this just adding something more to an existing, thing? Like another scoop on an ice cream cone you were literally already eating.
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I - Ah. [Why is he always hearing from other people explanations about how he feels that make sense? Why is it through Odin's stupid 20 questions and Magnus's logic that Peter's only beginning to realize these things? I guess I'm confused, since you already love her? Shit. It's not wrong but like...]
I don't want to freak her out. Complimenting her didn't exactly go great and, ah. I don't know. I don't know? I figure she already knows how I felt about her before. Is it super important to bring it up again? [Too many scoops of icecream and that shit is gonna fall sideways, fast.]
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[...]
You could say you like-like her. But also, you're like thirty?
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[No promises the "like-you like you" thing isn't how it'll go down but y'know, whatever.]
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Or if like, now, I'll just look like a dumb puppy or something. Call me out on it if I do.
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I mean, all of that was embarrassing, but I'm not sure which part was the question?
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I think it's dumb to be too cool for feelings. I think it's nice, when you can tell someone likes you. If it's as friends or family or something romantic.
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-- I'm really happy for you. You should be, too, alright?
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